On Ruts

by Nicole Branigan on September 4, 2012 · 4 comments

On Ruts | Blackbird Can Write

They happen. I don’t like it when they do, but like spinach in your teeth, they make an appearance every so often.

When I’m in a rut, I try to revel in it. Analyze it. Figure out why it is happening and what I can do to make it go away. The process usually goes something like this:

Wah.

Then I spend a day reorganizing my house, thinking about my feelings and where I should put the board games I never use.

I try to write through it. Nothing good ever comes out of it, but it’s like I’m afraid if I don’t walk every day I’ll forget how to use my limbs.

Then the journey parts in two directions:

  1. Something terrible happens and I’m reminded that I’m a lucky little girl and I should feel good about all the things.

  2. Something awesome happens and I am grateful for all the things.

Right now, I’m at the wah part. And I just reorganized my board games so I’m feeling shit out of luck. So either my car is going to break down or I’m going to land the job of my life (there are, of course, variances between these two). For now, I’ll just enjoy the rut ride.

How do you handle a rut?

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Auntie Gale September 4, 2012 at 7:50 pm

I call that, when I find myself doing what you describe while in a rut, furnishing it and moving in!!! And it does happen to all of us. The more I analyze, the deeper I can go, the more beautiful furnishings I have in my rut, all the easier to stay there. Lately, I just try to ride the storm out. The lesson is going to come no matter whether I spend my time thinking about it, or just continue on doing the next right thing!! I’m getting older and it’s getting easier just to let it unravel all on it’s own. I even think it goes a little faster that way. It starts by accepting that I’m not ok with where I’m at. Then for me, prayer and meditation. I also talk to a trusted friend, mentor or spiritual advisor. Lately, I’ve been told by 2 of the 3 that ‘sitting with it’ is the way to get through. My very good friend and mentor has been teaching me for years to be gentle on myself. I’m finding many benefits to this. 🙂 Love and light to you Nicole, on the other side of that rut is a rainbow – always good comes of our troubled times…

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Nicole Branigan September 4, 2012 at 11:55 pm

Thanks for reading and writing, Gale. There are not too many troubled times here, just a bit of a work funk. I love your insight!

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